Apparently, I am an idiot. I have no way of seeing the truth through my emotion. I am used and abused and I just keep coming back to my abuser. You know what? I don't believe that. I am loved and there are things that only I know. People should really consider their sources before they present their gossip-fed opinion to me as fact. If you want me to vent, here it is. You are wrong. You don't know what you are talking about and the only thing that the person you trashed says about you is that you are sweet and they love you. You have no comprehension of the relationship that you are trashing and you can't make judgements from the outside. If you are right, if I am abused. Then what about the rest of you out there. Why haven't you said anything to save me from myself.
I am so sick of trying to be what everyone needs all the time. I can't do it anymore. I am not able to be what you all need because your needs conflict. I am hurt I am pondering I am wondering if I am right or if you are.
If you are reading this and don't have a clue what I'm talking about then just ignore it. This is a "me" post. Sometimes this blog is the only thing I have that is all about me and tis was on my heart so here it is. I have a real post coming. It's in the works so sorry for all the cryptic stuff.
Be true to your God and be true to yourself. That is all you can do. Yes, your heart may get broken like this but you will always know you did what was best. I know the situation and know that you love very deeply, whether in friendship or otherwise. You are one of the most loyal fiends a person could have. That will stand up in time. Keep your head up and know you are loved no matter what!
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